Yeah, so I just graduated from high school last night. I’m still not feeling any different, so I’m guessing that, as with my 18th birthday, my life isn’t going to be mentally altered by this transition. However, formally, my years of learning are over and I’m stepping into…adulthood? Yikes.
So with great power comes great responsibility (see quotes). With responsibility comes expectation. Expectation brings pressure, and with pressure, anxiety. Anxiety leads to fear. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, and hate leads to suffering. Man, I’m sure looking forward to being out in the world now. Golly gee.
Okay, well, now that the negativity is over with, I can extrapolate SOME positive effects or instances out of the whole “grown-up” thing. (Refer to previous note “Growing Up?“)
I’m now being heaped with responsibilities left and right. The world is waiting for me to act. I am Atlas. No, maybe not, but hey, when you’ve had next-to -no incredibly grave situations weighing down my head and causing me to commit suicide, how am I going to feel when my boss relies on me to do this, or my family needs me to do that, or (God forbid) my dog needs to be fed???
I’m now caught in between being a bum in a cardboard box, with no responsibilities, no friends, and no life- and being a man of God who can take what comes, even if it’s hard and not exactly satisfying at the moment. Can I be bold enough to step out in faith and perform to my utmost- wait. Faith? Now it’s Faith I need? What about Hope? Or Courage? Why do I need Faith?
Faith is what keeps me going, so that Hope and Courage and Peace can come into effect. Sure, Love is important. Love is WHY we need Faith to need Courage and Hope to get through to Peace and Joy.
It’d be too easy otherwise.
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