As the year progresses (however slowly) and painful weeks filled with mind-numbing schoolwork and aching absence loom ahead for indomitable eras, I seek times for self-assessment and ways to change when necessary. Life values needing definition, fruits requiring nourishment, areas in my various walks that scream for attention and fixing. Flying blind is a very uncomfortable position, and I want solid facts, even negative ones, to grasp for even a little peace. So as I search for areas to change, and look for affirmation, I’m also hoping I never feel comfortable.
It’s just this thing I do.
But I do need to clarify that, as long as I am questioning myself, God’s plan for my future gets unabashedly taken for granted. The only insecurity I have is that I don’t know anything for sure, except that the Lord does, and can trust Him. Thus, I step forward, completely insecure (which is best for me at the moment) and 100% dependent on God.
And I can safely say that this is way more fun than I’ve ever had.
You should try it sometime.
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