Dear Diary,
Today I came to the conclusion that confidence is not simply acquired– it must be practiced.
This was realized after years of feeling unsure of my abilities, successes, and ideas. My insecurity would manifest itself through lack of motivation, no follow-through on my own ideas, and a sinking, gut-wrenching fear of failure around every corner. Relationships, careers, and personal projects all suffered from my sudden negligence or mopey demeanor. And I hated myself during these times, often resorting to forcing on projects and physical activities to stave off depression.
Recently, I feel myself again treading mud in the murky ponds of apathy, fighting off numbness. But I can win this fight, like I’ve done successfully before. And now I have a new strategy. Confidence; in myself, in my loved ones, in my skills and abilities and experience. I’m smart. I can do things. You got questions? I got answers.
Bring it on.
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