After a lot of poems, nonsensical writings, and apparent statements of unbelief, I have decided to sit down and write an expository. Not so much for the putting off of important homework assignments…but rather, for the concrete, stable morality I feel I need to redefine and reiterate as I journey boldly forth to…Orlando.
Okay okay, an hour and a half away doesn’t count. But really, it’s not about the distance. It’s about how I spend my seconds. How I judge my actions, and thereby carry on accordingly. And, of course, how I plan to set my personal standards and stick by them, despite however much implied pressure put on my weak and pitiful being. So…where to begin?
What say we, at the start? (The following statements are not for the weak of heart!)
#1 – I AM A CHRISTIAN, GOD-FEARING MAN!
This is defined by my actions towards first, my God: Is my relationship with Him strong? Full of effort? Spent in the Word? Uplifting? Worshipful? Unshakable? Indestructible? Probably not…there’s work to be done! Second, my Christian manliness is defined by the way I treat others: Am I selfless? Do I put others first? Is my focus on other people before myself? Are people placed under God? Is my attitude selfless and outpouring to others? Plenty to work on there, too. And finally, is my life in order? Do I possess the qualities I would seek for in a wife? Do I contain my instant gratification and control my thoughtlessness? Am I a good steward of what I have been given? Am I a good role model for those younger than myself?
Self-evaluation cannot come close to finding the ingrown sin I have leeching on me, but each time I fail, and follow through with repentance and renewed strength, I have beaten another sinful cell from my body.
#2 – I AM A STUDENT! WHO CAN’T GROW A BEARD!
My studies, and the gifts of a painless education, must not be wasted on frivolous living expenses. Lunch with people is fine…Carrabbas twice a week is not. Dropping homework to support a friend is okay sometimes…forgetting assignments and wasting time is not. My duty in life is now set up like so: A) God. B) School. C) Not school. Sadly…this must take effect the minute I step onto campus. So note like this will be rare next year. Or, if they are more populous, you must smite me with cans of potpourri.
#3 – I AM A WORKER, WHO MUST ONE DAY SUPPORT A FAMILY!
Well, it’s not like I didn’t already know that. But when cool new gadgets come out, and I start drooling over the free subscription tech magazines I ordered…things can get out of control. I’ve always been that way…I can usually contain myself and be calm…except around electronics. I bet I would get addicted to the slot machines before I got addicted to the gambling. So to continue- When I make money, and if the money seems to be pouring in at great magnitude, and there’s extra and to spare…I must SAVE. I hate saving. I despise saving. I never save money. That needs to change. And it must never intrude on my character again, or else my family could be in trouble one day.
Really, it’s not all that hard. It’s just another step. Another transition. I enjoy change, and look forward to the upcoming switch in lifestyles. It will become much faster-paced, and much busier. I must remember to make time for God…because He would stop time for me. And after God is set in His rightful place in my life, everything else orders itself. I’m trusting Him with my life, and His will for it, and for me. Who else would I trust? Myself?
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